The effect of you* on me

no gamma rays here, please move on.

This effect is the one that different people have on one's very being.

Some people seem to drain the very lifeblood out of you until you just want to scream "Aren't you dead yet?!?!"

Others infuse you with a sense that everything's okay.

Still others seem to give you a kick-start, inspiring you to do.

Yet others (few if you're lucky) can in a very short time-span, cause you to experience all of the above.

I cherish the few that I know (whether in real life or online) in the last group.

These are the people that you want around you. The ones that stir your blood. Make you feel good about existing. Make you want to tear your hair out. Make you want to call Vinnie and Guido and get a contract out on them. Make you want to smother them with hugs and kisses. Make you want to hold them when they go through a bad patch. Make you comfortable.

These are the people that you care about. They either care about you, or you want them to.

It's a delicate relationship with these people. Most of them have no idea of the feelings, they just know they like to be around you.

Maybe you inspire these feelings in them. You may never know, but you go on caring and nurturing the relationship.

You do this because:

1. You need the range.
2. You need the exasperation, sometimes.
3. You need the comfortable.

This is the effect that you have on me.


*you being in the royal terms.