Resentment

Not an emotion I'm very familiar with, either in feeling it myself or having it aimed toward me, I'm feeling a lot of resentment and jealousy from people at work.

I was chosen for a special project, term: unknown. And from the moment it was announced people who had been nice to me were suddenly whispering behind my back, glaring when they thought I didn't see, making snide remarks about how I got the project.

I'm just me, I don't go on my knees for anything. Why I was chosen is a mystery to me, other than I've known the project leader for years and we're casual friends. You know, wave and smile and say "Hi, how's it going?" type of friends.

But he also knows my work ethics and methods. Knows that questions will be concise and to the point, knows that I'll not be off gossiping with 'the girls' when there's work to be done, knows that when I take a break, I'll be back before the break is over, not 10 minutes late.

Granted, I'm great at organizing potlucks and coming up with team logos and other silly stuff that takes no time, but when it comes to my actual work, I'm there and ready.

So maybe it's not so unbelievable that I was chosen. Maybe I deserve this.